How a little moment became my forever

Running a little back to my story , that quiet shy girl who always smiles at anything .A forever happy person changed her own life ,her own heart just in split seconds.Smiling can be your shield even when people think you are weak they tend to ask themselves a question and that is “how does she stay happy”. Happiness is priceless and that is guaranteed . I always smile at the world and this time I got served.I used my smile to fool the world oh and by the world I mean friends and family . Nobody noticed that something is wrong and that may have always been , I would cry all alone , not eat anything all because of the ” Clever” of this world.Being called names and being taken advantage of …that took my confidence ,that placed me in dark corners ,Today and tomorrow I will always speak up ,I don’t want labels ,I don’t want shaming because all that and more was a moment in each day that became my forever . Depression is real , Anxiety is real And moments can be forever.

Getting through anxiety

All this started at the age of 12 and at that moment I did not know what I was feeling or what to feel,confusion had me sipping through the slimmest straw of them all.

The journey through it all

Most people know me as a “forever laughing” person but no one really knows what goes around in my mind.I’ve had to adjust to being around people who are always happy who didn’t know how it was to feel down almost every day , people who thought that having no money is the only stressful thing.A lot was happening at the time I had lost my mom well actually my step mom who no one asked me how I felt about her passing .I resorted to self harming and suicide, I lost count of how many times I’ve self harmed ,how I’ve tried to take my life and through that all I felt like giving up on my dreams . It’s not always easy to try and act fine every time that is why I decided that telling my story might change another person’s life.